31 January 2012

10dpo

Despite all my best plans to wait until tomorrow to test, and then only if my temp went up again (it dropped to 36.5 today), I couldn't resist and tested this morning.

BFN.

I had a tiny bit of spotting too, so unless my temps stabilise or pick up, I'm guessing I'm on the road to AF again. In the meantime I've made it hard on myself by testing too early despite being big enough and ugly enough to know better.

Anyway, I'm sitting in the doctor's surgery and am finally getting up the courage to ask for help again, albeit as an aside to another issue. I'm not sure how far I'm prepared to go with assistancthis time, but maybe there's something else I could be doing.

29 January 2012

So my crosshairs have moved to day 15, which seems a lot more reasonable and gives us much better timing. The only thing is that this month's 2ww feels at least 3 weeks long.

I've figured out that my luteal phase lengthening doesn't seem to change my cycle length, which stays around 28 days. So if this month works out, I'm expecting about a 14 day luteal phase. Which would be good. I can probably test in about 5 days and be sure of the result.

Mr is starting to get used the idea of a struggle to conceive. It's a new experience for him as his two eldest were easy, and no.1 for us together was a surprise after a long time trying with my ex. I can tell it's playing on his mind as when I walked into the room holding pens, his first thought was pregnancy tests!

I'm beginning to think he may try for a bit longer so it may be worth going through all the tests again to get help. At least with a longer than 6 day lp, the day 21 progesterone test will be easier to time.

As for symptoms, not a lot, although I have had some cramps today. My temps are good and went back up to 36.7 today but I'm trying to avoid wishful thinking. Having dwelled on my charts far too much over the last few months, I can say with some certainty that the only difference between a pregnancy chart and an ovulatory chart is the test result...

Maybe this month my test will come.

24 January 2012

Reliance

I can't log into Fertility Friend this morning. I've tried the mobile app and that's not working either. My chart this month is off the wall, FF currently has crosshairs for ovulation at day 9, which seems unlikely, but I've almost certainly ovulated now as I've had a load of high temps.

My temp this morning is 36.3... I NEED to add it to my chart. I NEED to consult my technological charting guru! Now!

Edit: They've let me in. Any thoughts on this chart?

Reliance

I can't log into Fertility Friend this morning. I've tried the mobile app and that's not working either. My chart this month is off the wall, FF currently has crosshairs for ovulation at day 9, which seems unlikely, but I've almost certainly ovulated now as I've had a load of high temps.

My temp this morning is 36.3... I NEED to add it to my chart. I NEED to consult my technological charting guru! Now!

5 January 2012

I've kind of given up blogging about everything the last couple of months. I don't feel like this baby is going to happen right now. And right now is all we have.

I'm 13dpo today and still I'm only spotting - less than I was yesterday too. The signs are positive but I'm too scared to test as I already tested at 8dpo and 10dpo and both were BFNs. I didn't test this morning so am now trying to hold for 4hrs so I can test this afternoon but it's going to take a lot of courage to actually do it.

Realistically, the result can't get any worse, but it's those bloody glimmers of hope that cause most pain. Just when you're almost resigned to defeat, they come and grab you and make your heart beat faster again.

Please, please, please let it be good this time.
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