Messed up

My temperature was back down this morning and my period had come. I kind of knew it last night.

The disappointment of not being pregnant is rather overshadowed right now. In my messed up state, I tweeted this link from the wrong account. It doesn't look like lots of people clicked but for now, this doesn't feel like the safe place that it was.

I am hoping that if you clicked and now know who I am, that you will understand my need for anonymity and not say anything. I don't want to let Mr down by saying something here that I haven't yet found the words or the moment to express to him. There are some things you can only talk about to the people you love and strangers, and sometimes it's easier to explain it to a stranger first.